so im bassicaly at the point in this relationship where im questioning its worth. i think the best thing at this point would be to just let it die, and to tell you the truth that thought doesnt bother me too much. we had a good time while it lasted i guess even tho he kinda made me feel like shit most of the time but whatever it was the love that counted isnt it? oh well. i think im going to go learn some new songs now so ill talk to eveyonrlater i guess. peace, and blessed be.

k, first of all, how was everyones christmas? 6.6 anyone, no? ok, then my turn. all i wanted for christmas was either a new guitar, (since mike and jeff broke..no wait, MUTILATED! my last one) or an i pod so i could listen to my music at wll without having to look an hour for the song i actrually wanted. but did i get any of those? no...i got a baby poop yellow colored FISHING POLE! WHY THE HELL DO I NEED A BABY POOP YELLO FISHING POLE? any comments, feel free to give them, id like to know what to do with a fishing pole in the middle of winter, and soon to be, in the middle of a poluted radioactive fish ifested river in california... im not eating them, but you feel free jon, thanx 4 the pole. lol.

omigod, my ferret scratched the inside of my eylid. i go to bed at 11:00 pm and wake up at 2:00am for work im working all day plus swing, i have no time for myself and more important, my friends, i dont know whats going on with everyone and it makes me nervous, cuz i love my friends and i dont want us to fall apart, bassically im ranting about nothing, cuz im tired, so please, dont pay attetion to this journal. om goid, seriously that pig has a larg penis.........thanx.

dear heart,

So i met this boy today, so im letting you know in advance, prepare to shatter.

his name is Dillon and i think hes pretty cool. if you turned me into a guy, you would get dillon. litterally. hes like my evil twin. hes moving here in the spring, and he thinks we should date when he does get here. hes the same age and everything, and i do like him. But i still feel devoted to someone. no matter how much he throws me away, i manage to fall for him all over again. i didnt know what love was till i lost his, and i know that sounds realy pathetic and all, but i think i am still in love with im as much as i know he is not in love with me.

so basically if your reading this right now, i pretty much want your advice. should i let go of the latter and try a new door, or remain a faithful slave to the infatuation i hae fallen in love with?

Yours Truly,
Battle-Toaster.